The Path

I made him promise to not go too fast.  I made him promise to stay where it was safe.  Not too high (I’m terrified of heights..like pass out and die of fear..afraid of heights) no steep hills, no crazy detours…you get the idea. And he said, “I promise I’ll watch out for you.”  So we headed off. Out on our four wheeling trip into the desert. … [Read more...]

Crystal Glasses and Paper Napkins

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I've always been very hard on myself. The whole idea of extending grace to others is a far easier concept for me to grasp than extending it to myself. And for years, one of the ways this manifested in my life was in a constant striving for perfection. If I do all of the 'right' things and make all of the 'right' choices then everything in my life will be 'right'...right? ;-) Of course, even as I type out those words I realize once again how absolutely ridiculous that sounds. Because, … [Read more...]

It’s Not You, It’s Me

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We're snuggled into the covers, talking and giggling in those precious minutes before I kiss her goodnight. We make shadow puppets on the wall and she begs me to sing Jesus Loves Me in my best opera voice. I'm not going to lie folks, it's epic. You'll have to hear it sometime. She thinks that she is stalling bedtime. But I know the truth. These are treasured moments, sacred and precious. These are the moments when she will confide in me about her day. When she'll laugh hysterically … [Read more...]

Good Friday Doesn’t Feel Good

When Good Friday Does't Feel So Good

Every year I find myself compelled to go. I know it will probably feel painful and even a bit dark. I know I will once again sit in a pew with tears streaming down my face as I recognize how unworthy I am of being treated as someone of worth. To be valued, treasured, sacrificed for. If this is Good Friday, why doesn't it feel so “good”? … [Read more...]

Making Friends With My Problems

I read the words over and over, certain I had misunderstood or that in my just awakened, pre-caffeinated state I had to be reading them incorrectly. But there was no mistake about it. There they were. Right there in black and white. Words which sounded so incredibly strange to me and frankly words which I wasn't particularly thrilled to be reading that morning. … [Read more...]

Clinging to Truth in the Pain

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I went to bed with her on my mind. I woke up with her on my mind. I sent her a text as soon as I got out of bed to tell her that I was praying for her...praying hard. Praying that during their appointment that morning, they would hear the heartbeat. … [Read more...]

In the Doldrums

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Have you ever wondered where different sayings come from? My son received a really cool game for Christmas called 'Word Teasers'. (In the spirit of complete honesty let me clarify that his parents thought it fell in the 'cool' category while he thought it fell in the 'educational' category and those two categories don't always cross over in an 11 year olds world!) Essentially it is giving the background on all of those sayings, or idioms, which have become part of our everyday conversations. … [Read more...]

Treasures

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I was on a mission. My husband had taken the kids on a walk and I had a few minutes to race through the house cleaning and picking up all of the items which seemed to cover every square inch of floor. I became a veritable “Mommy Tornado”! Nothing was safe as I worked my way up the stairs and followed the trail of Legos leading to my son’s room. The epicenter of the mess. … [Read more...]

God Won’t Gong You

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Do you remember 'The Gong Show'? It was kind of the 'American Idol' of the late '70's, early '80's with one major difference. Just imagine Jennifer Lopez, Keith Urban and Harry Connick Jr. listening to each contestant and then instead of simply deciding whether or not they would earn a golden ticket, they would decide if the contestant would be allowed to complete their audition or if they were so absolutely horrible that one of the judges simply couldn't stand it any longer and must pick … [Read more...]